Loving Grandparents

Little Man is telling me he wants to see Mima, Papa, Grandpa, and Grandma. I love that my children have such strong relationships with their grandparents. As a child I thought family was suppose to automatically love you. It was very confusing and upsetting when life didn't work that way. Negative or nonexistent relationships with some of my relatives have made me more appreciative of the loving relationships my children and I have. I know I can rely on my parents and my husband's parents to love each member of my family wholeheartedly. They make Little Man and Little Miss feel so special and loved. My great - grandma and great - grandpa made me feel that way. I have never doubted their love for me. I'm so glad my kids have that kind of relationship with their grandparents.

Feeling Good

It's another rainy day. My husband is learning to play one of our favorite songs on his acoustic guitar. I've been reading a good book on my phone. I just got off the phone with my mom and still have the sound of her laughter in my ears. My children are playing together. My life is so amazing right now. Even when I can't feel how lucky I am, I still know it, but feeling it is spectacular! Today I feel it so strongly. I am a very blessed woman.

Winning

Today my illness wants to eat me. It tried to tie me to the bed and told me no one loves me. It told me to grow my nails back out because scratching welts into my body feels so damn good. Anxiety is rippling just below my skin and making me itch.
But here is where things get awesome. I am winning! I got out of bed. I took a shower. I put on jeans and I'm wearing a bra. Today I am the boss God damn it! I've got this handled and I am happy.